Saturday, October 25, 2014

old & new..


I hate it..
I hate that I cannot be as happy as I were before..
I loathe myself that I were unable to control my emotions..
even for some small issue, I would lose my temper..
I can cry over some small things..
I miss my old life..
old people from my earlier life..
now everything seems dull..
dark, stressful and I dunno what I can do to fix it..
it makes me feel so frustrated..
I feel as if I've lost hope in everything..
lost in my own despair..
what should I do?
should I stay down and quit?
or should I get back up and fight?

Saturday, October 11, 2014

life..


life...
it depends on how we define it..
it can be happiness, sadness, frustrations, delight, joy, everything that words can describe..
but its all up to u..
to shape your own life..
to sketch you own path..
in life, i've learned to laugh, to hurt..
to love, to appreciate, to feel depressed, to feel neglected..
lots more..
people may see me as the bubbly girl..
one who never has any problems..
but deep inside, only I know the true answer..
only i know the real me..
what i've been through..
what i've felt..
how i've been thrown away by someone i loved..
isolated by people i call friends..
getting jealous over someone i thought was my best friend..
but instead they only seek me in their times of despair..
i was like a pit stop..
where people come to fix all their problems, what's making their day feel bad..
pour all their untold secrets..
feelings..then leave whenever they felt better..
and never ready to be there with me when i need them..
yes, i feel unimportant to some people..
maybe i need a few people that will pay their full attention to me..
know when i'm sad..
when i'm just tired..
when i just needed someone too sit quietly with..
when i need someone to hug..
but above all, i just wanted to feel special to someone..