yg mane satu idaman kalbu?

pening la..
x tw nk plih mane satu nie..
iphone5s ke samsung note III?
hurm..
samsung pnye screen bsar..
hrge pn mcm ok jer..
td survey2 bru RM1999..
iphone5s plak RM2480..
jauh lg murah la dr first aku tgk..
mse tu aku survey RM2699 kot..
gler la..
tp aku nekad nk amek fon bru..
nk kumpul duet..
huhuhu..

too tired for my own good..

Ya Allah..

pnat yg tramat skang nie..

mkin bz ngan keje..

smpikn bnde len pn tergendala..

nk bli fon..

nk renew lesen yg bru mati..

nk wt spek bru..

hurm..

migrain pn da menyerang..

nsib bek la roadshow utk thun nie da abes..

klau x mmg x te la nk ckp ape..

ngan org x ckup kt admissions tu..

kdg2 srabut gak wt keje..

ngan guest yg mcm2 prangai lg..

haish, kesabaran jela..

huhu..

tp semlm alhamdulillah..

i got my first compliment dr guest spore..

well, agak tkjut n x cye gak la ble die compliment tu..

hahahaha..

sbb nye aku rse aku wt keje mcm biase jer..

xdela bgus sgt..

ngehngeh..

alhamdulillah, ade gak org yg hargai keje aku..

even aku xde kwn kt tmpt keje tu tp aku x pduli..

aku wt jer keje aku..

wt hal sndri..

n pihak atasan nmpk usahe aku..

juz skang nie maybe overworked kot..

tp tpakse mc sbb mmg sgt x larat nk g keje..

sket kpale yg tramat..

huhuhu..

nsib bek la esok off day..

bley rhat lg..

okla, nk titun..

bubui guys..

:)

life and death..

Asslamualaikum..

figured out this picture yet?

well, it's all about life and death..

the left side is the life part where the tree grows strong and got all the nutrients it needed

the right side is the opposite of it..

everything on the right side already died..even the clouds are dark..

same as us..

ever wondered how our afterlife is going to be?

some people do, some people don't..

some are too terrified to even think about it..

this thing suddenly occurred to me when Am said all things about death..

he said 'kau ttap akn syg aku even aku da xde kn dok?'

'kau jgn nanges tw ble kau nmpk jasad aku terbujur dgn kain kapan dpn kau, kau senyum jer ye'

at that time i tried fighting back the tears but failed..

i cannot lie to myself that i do love him..

even more than i should..

but he's like a part of me..

he's like my brother..

i cried myself that night hoping that all that was a joke and praying that he will live a long life..

i still haven't get to know him fully yet..

to Am, aku x tw la ape yg kau mksudkn ngan sume yg kau ckp tu..

tp klau btul bnde tu jd, aku nk jmpe kau wt kali trakhir..

aku nk pluk kau..

cium kau..

aku x pduli org nk ckp ape..

skurang2nye aku dpt wt cmtu utk kali trakhir seblum kau tgglkn aku..

tp klau x smpat, ape yg aku mampu wt utk kau is iringkn doa..

smoge kau ditempatkn di kalangan org2 yg briman..

hrp ape yg kau ckp tu cume sje2..

jgn tgglkn aku..

aku masih prlukn kau dlm idup aku..

:'(

sharing..

assalamualaikum..
it's really been a while right?
not much time to update the ongoings of my life..
work has been quite tiring and stressful but i'll manage somehow..
i always do..
i even have the love of my life now..
who is it?
jeng3..
(biarlah rahsia)
for now only..
hahaha..
(be patient people!!)
nnt sy tnjuk ye gmbrnye..
haha..
xkn nk tnjuk 1 dunie plak kn..
kepoh eh kau jemah..
ha'ah..kemain~
hihihi..
ok, back to my topic just now..
best friends..
they are family u never knew of..
they will always be there for u through thick and thin..
joy or sadness..
sharing ur happiness or sorrow..
lending u a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on and an ear that never stops hearing ur problems..
i just wanted u to know Am...
that i will always be there for u..
no matter how far..
no matter how hard it is..
i'll be there..
hope u feel that way too..
sorry aku x dpt nk tlg kau lately..
aku phm prasaan kau..
tp aku x pnah alami sndri..
n aku x tw cmne nk wt kau tenang n hepi..
ape yg aku mampu wt utk kau is dgr jer prob kau n nasihatkn ape yg ptut..
bg sokongan moral..
tu jer..
stay strong my friend..
i love u..
always and forever..
my BFF...
:)

best friends forever

btul kn gmbr kt ats nie?
sbb even rmai mane pn bestfren pmpuan kte..
xkn sme ngan bestfren laki..
someone yg kte bley gurau2 without tkut die jtuh ati kt kte..
kte bley mnje2 ngan die ble2 mse kte nk..
org nk jelez pn pduli ape sbb kte ngan die mcm adek bradek..
kte bley jd dri sndri ngan die..
klau mke kte buruk pn die xkn ketawakn kte..
die trime kte seadenye..
die pn sme..
x berpura2 jd org len..
kte slesa ngan die..
die pn cmtu..
lpas lme aku crik, at last aku jmpe gak..
am n man..
i'm really blessed to have friends like them..
x berkire..
caring..
slalu ade ble aku prlu..
cheer up aku ble aku cdey..
mmg bru knal tp ktorg mcm da knal lme..
cpt ngam..hehe..

 am

 man

 my bodyguards.. :)

 we're just crazyyyy!!!

man sewel..

uncontrollable

i failed..
failed to hold on to this relationship..
i thought i could be stronger than this..
but i failed..
sorry because i asked u to let me go..
it's just i can't help to lie to myself and to u..
the truth is i still can't forget him..
he still has that special place in my heart..
i regret for toying with ur feelings..
i dunno what i was thinking at that time..
i was stupid thinking that i could let him go totally..
100%..
awk, maafkn sy ye..
sy tpu awk..
slame nie sy brusaha nk lpekn die..
n cbe nk ltak awk dlm ati sy..
tp sy x bley..
ntah la..
ampunkn la sy..
lpas nie sy x nk bg harapan kt sespe lg..
sy x nk kne label 'player'
better sy stay single jer wt mse nie..
mengharapkn 'dia' yg x tw ble akn dtg blek kt aku..
mgkin gak die wt cmtu sbb nk jge ati aku jer..
dear heart, be strong and just let go..
move on please..
i have to stop torturing myself..
but at the same time..
i can't imagine myself with another guy..
maybe i'll stay like this until YOU decide my fate..
i leave it all to YOU..

be certain..

at times i may feel uncertain..
i may feel insecure about myself..
but u made me feel special..
i can be myself when i'm with u..
i can share my secrets without worrying about negative things..
u accepted me the way i am..
and for that i'm really thankful..
sometimes i will feel like i love someone else..
but that's all just my imagination..
it's just my heart playing games..
i hope u will stay by my side forever..
i hope we can stay together till Jannah..
i love u and only u..
there is no one else in my heart except u..
i may flirt, i may be naughty..
but believe me when i say i love u and i wanna be ur wife until end of time..
thanks for everything my love..
i cherish u and i never wanna be apart from u..
u're apart of me now..
-capital F.I-

work3...brrr~

hey guys, it's been quite a while..
ape khabar sume?
shat?
alhamdulillah..
aku shat jer..
bz sgt lately sbb da start keje..
mse tu g interview..
first time interview mmg rse nebes gler..
ggil2 tgn aku..
tp ble tgk mke interviewer tu baik..
ilang nebes tu..
alhamdulillah everything went well..
my english is still good..
and after 5 days or so i got the job..
where?
da agak da mesty korg terpk2 ktne la aku keje nie kn?
hahaha..
jeng3...
tadaaaaaa.....
nie la die...

ngehngehngeh..
Legoland Malaysia..
haha..
well, org pk mesty best kn keje kt theme park..
international theme park plak tu..
hurm, mmg best pn..
cume mule2 tu pnat la..
sbb x biase..
hehehe..
tp lme2 da ok..
n i really have fun here..
hope this lasts for a long time..
:)

Soulful..

Ya allah, i really love him..

He never fails to suprise me..

Td chat ngan die..

Mcm xde mood sgt so bls sepatah2 jer..

Then die tnye da mkn ke blum..

Aku ckpla blum..

Lapoo..

Then die ckp mkn la syg..

Prut awk tu kne jge..

X lme lg awk nk ngandungkn anak sy..

Mse bce tu ati aku trase bahagia sgt..

Mcm2 prasaan bercampur..

Sayu, bahagia, tersentuh..mcm2 la..

He makes me fall deeper in love..

I'm really speechless right now..

I love u soo much syg..

Hope u're the last for me..

I love u..

I really do..

My capital F.I..

<3

Crushed..

I always have the ability to spoil everything up..

Dunno what to say..

I can just say i'm really2 sorry..

Lately i have been making u sad..

Sy rse x pnah wt awk bahagia pn slame nie..

Sy slalu wt awk cdey jer..

Wt awk nanges..

Ye, even awk x btw sy tp sy tw..

Sy diamkn sbb sy rse mcm x layak ade ngan awk..

Sy nie x sempurna..

Belum ckup sempurna utk idup ngan someone..

Sy x tw ape keputusan yg die nk wt, i admit my mistake..

Ape pn keputusan yg die akn wt aku akn trime dgn ati yg redha..

Mmg slh aku sbb wt die cmni..

Aku seolah2 seksa die..

Dgn sikap aku, ape yg aku ckp..

I'm really sorry..

Forgive me..

-capital F.I-

apart...

  

 seems like everyday with him can make it quite tiring..

i always miss him..

he's also the same..

but sometimes i can't help but wonder..

why am i like this?

why do i feel uncertain?

like there's something missing between us..

like there's something that needs to be done for us to be in love all the time..

but what?

can't quite grope at the idea right now..

everything seems like a blur to me..

i just hope you don't feel the same way as me..

because maybe u felt bored..

because i kinda neglected you this few days..

i dunno..

i just can't help it..

really..

i can't seem to control my own emotions right now..

i'm a living wreck..

falling apart bit by bit without anyone or even myself realizing it..

and it's getting tiring having to act like i'm happy all the time..

maybe i need some sort of release..

i need to go somewhere..

far away..

to sort out my thoughts, my feelings..

and start afresh..

everything's all jumbled up in my head..

confused is something i can be sure of right now..

:(