pieces of ME...

i left him...

thinking that he will have regrets..

that he will fight for our relationship...

but i guess all of this years have been a total waste..

i trusted him...

maybe not entirely...

but that is enough to break my heart...

to make me suffer...

i just hope he know why i did this...

why i have to leave him...

it's against me to accept someone like him...

but, i guess i'm not strong enough to accept his mistakes...

they are too heavy to handle...

in the end, i ended up heartbroken...AGAIN..

and it's all bcoz of him...

he's my first love and even though all that he had done to me...

i still can't get over him..

why?

god, please tell me why...

why do my heart breaks every time he do something wrong?

why does my tears flow when i think of him?

he's not a good guy...

but why do i love him so much?

i need strength...

right now, i'm vulnerable...

i'm too weak to stand..

too weak to even be my happy self again...

all i can do is smile..

bcoz the pain is unbearable...

it's too hard to swallow..

the pain is too great for me to endure...

please make it stop...

please...

:'(