yummy! :D ~part 2~

bear tido...zzzzz~

yummm..... :)

colourful...

ice cream cumel...hehe

roti cumel...hehehe

yummy! :D ~part 1~

sdapnye...

cumel n nmpk sdap gler!!! ;)

yum yum..

yummy bento box...

cumelnyer....

thanks kwn2... :)

smlm aku post update kt fb...

aku tlis "em....not in the mood...don't know what's in my head :'("

pas 2 de member2 aku komen...

diorg tnye npe aku cdey pe sume...

n diorg ckp jgnla cdey2...

idup mmmg la slalu de prob...

then de sorg kwn aku nie post kt wall aku...

die tlis... "laugh as much as you breath and love as long as you live"

aku sbnrnye x sgke die cm 2...

die amek brat sal aku...

thanks kwn2...

korg de mse aku sng n sush...

:)

sy gler PHOTOGRAPHY!!!!

he came to give me his heart.. *wink*

sooo cute... :)

cookie monster is HUNGRY... :P

i'm afraid of losing u... :(

tell me u love me more... A.. ;)

sy gler WEDGES!!! :P

nie la koleksi2 wedges yg aku de...

byk lg sbnrnye...

tp nie yg latest la...

hehe

:P

thanks yayunk!!! ;)

smlm eyda dtg umah aku men menatang nie...

hehe...nmenye nintendo wii...

azwan pn de gak tp die dtg jap jer..

bub die de keje...

photographer la ktekn...hehe :P

ktorg men la dr thgari smpi ptg...

pnat gler..hehe

tp mmg puas..

hehe...cmne pn..

thanks eyda bub wtkn kte hepi smlm..

;)

almost accident...scary~

smlm mlm g mkn ngan parents dkt2 umah...

ngah sdp2 mkn...da nk abes, tetbe dgr bnyi yg sgt mngerikn...

huhuhu...

bnyi mtor bgesel atas jln...

tgk2 jer de sorg mamat nie da t'bring ats jln...

nsib bek die cpt bgn...

klau x...da arwah rsenye...

huhuhu...

alhamdulillah...

idup die still pjg..

i think i love you.. :)

i think i'm falling in love again...

to me, he's really sweet...

he never takes advantage of me...

he takes care of me...

he comforts me when i have problems..

help me overcome my fears...

and i think i'm falling in love slowly with him...

he's a really good guy...

even though before this it's hard to forget that guy before this..

when i'm with this guy...

all my memories before slowly fades away...

bit by bit my feelings are erased...

it's like he overtook that space inside my heart...

that has been empty for a very long time...

and he help me cure my broken heart..

he mended my heart slowly...

hopefully he's the right one for me...

and i want to say to him "i think i love you"

:)

please...

what you've done to me...

has made me afraid of you..

afraid to face the real world...

afraid of what people will say about me..

what they will do when they look at my face..

maybe they will say, "hey,this girl is a liar, backstabber"

all those rude things...

i don't know what they want from me...

but i'm really afraid...

it's one me against few of them...

how do i survive...

i'm not strong enough...

whatever i do will be judged by them..

i feel like quitting my studies and stay at home...

locking myself in the room and cry all day...

what did i do to make her really hate me so much?

is all this worth it for one mistake that i did?

is it too big until i have to be humiliated in front of the whole world?

in front of everyone i know?

all i want is forgiveness...

maybe that is the only thing you can't give me..

except hatred, revenge and lots more..

wish u were here...

i miss him...

wish he were here...

i want to talk with him...

like old times...

hanging out together...

walking side by side...

holding hands...

but, he's no longer mine...

i just hope he knows i'm thinking about him...

always...

i miss u EKASHA...

:'(

i miss the OLD u...

i miss the old u...

the would who likes to sneak behind my back..

and hug me from behind...

who laughs at my jokes even though it's not funny...

who would hear all my problems with full attention...

who likes to cuddle besides me...

who always asks me to accompany you everywhere....

who has always been kind to me...

who helps me with my problems...

who lifts my spirit to keep on studying..

i really really MISS u...

:'(

why does this happen to ME???

i've had enough of crying...

i really want to stop..

but all i kept doing is cry and cry and CRY...

i don't know why...

what happened lately in my life had deeply affected me...

it's made me weak n even weaker day by day...

maybe god is testing me...

i don't know...

but some part of myself feels that all of this happen bcoz of my previous mistake...

it kept haunting me every night since then...

i cannot run away...

it still chases me until this very moment...

all the regret, fear...

but i know there's no way i can turn back time and prevent it from happening...

i just can't...

all i can do now is face it...

no matter how hard it is going to be..

hope things will be better soon..

i cannot stand this suffering any longer...

:|

what i feel...

i'm feeling really down right now...

if only i'm a toy i can do this...

but i'm not..

once i do this, there's no turning back..

i'm not a toy that can be fixed and sewed back to normal...

i'm just a human being...

with a heart and feelings...

i just want someone to understand me n how i feel...

is it to hard to ask???

puzzles of my life..

right now i'm trying to build a new life...

i'm going to pick up the happy part that happened before and treasure it...

and throw away all of the sadness, pain, suffering and everything...

i don't want to remember all of it..

it will only hurt me a lot..

now,i'm putting up pieces of my life like a jigsaw puzzle..

including my broken heart...

i'm trying to mend it and make it stronger...

hopefully things will become better in time...

exam week!

skunk nie aku ngah exam...

alhamdulillah td bley jwb ngan bek...hehe

paper front office..

nsib bek la bub subjek uh sush gak..

anyway,tggl lg 3 paper...

geography, travel agency operation ngan marketing...

hrp2 dpt jwb sume la..

insya-allah...amin..

doakn aku ye kwn2.. ;)

i want this one mummy! huhu..

nk nie...nk nie...nk nie!!!!!

da lme aku phati jer bnde nie...

ble la nk dpt kn...

huhuhu...

insya-allah klau aku de duet lbey nnt aku nk bli...

klau ikutkn ati nk jer mntk mak blikn...

tp sushkn die plak nnt...

anyway,smlm testing2 cuz nye camera...

canon EOS 500D...

siap de image stabilizer lg...

peh,mkin mnambahkn mnat aku nk bli binatang nie...

waaaa!!!!!

i want ONE!!

:P

just when i thought i'm over him...

just when i thought there are no more feelings for him in my heart...

i thought that when i see his face all that i feel is empty...

but, instead all the pain, suffering, and misery resurfaces in my heart...

when i see him with someone else...

i feel like crying...

i think that my tears had already dried up...

but the moment i see his face...

the tears flow like waterfall from my eyes...

non-stop...

it's so unbearable....

it hurts so much..

if i can throw my heart away i would...

but what can i do except watch with a broken heart....

:'(

love life..

i'm loving my life!

haha...

getting everything back on track...

i guess everything's going great...

they are people who still loves me...

and they love me for who i AM...

not for who i'm NOT...

so, all i want to say is...

i LOVE my life!

don't you dare ruin it...

understand?

:P

love me..

my mum always say...

before you learn to love someone..

you have to learn to love yourself...

to respect yourself before you respect others...

and only then will people will learn to love you and respect you for who you are...

not for what you are TRYING to be...

get it?

good...

:)

friends..

i guess what this picture is trying to say is totally TRUE...

friends are always there to comfort you...

if you want chocolates to comfort your feelings...

you have to buy some...

but not friends...

they will voluntarily come to you whenever you need them...

24 hours a day...

they can e your siblings, enemies at times...

but they are all you've ever wanted...

a shoulder to cry on, someone to share stories with...

even go to parties with..

hahaha..

i'm really thankful for all my friends...

<3 all of them...

wherever they are...

don't forget me ok?

;)

stress???

have you ever wondered what will happen to you if you are always tensed and stressed out 24 hours a day?

ta daa...

this is what will happen...

hahaha...

just kidding...

but, sometimes it's kind of fun to wonder about silly things...

like, what will happen if you had too many donuts or something like that...

well, actually i'm just bored...

don't know what to do..

LOL...

i guess i better get to sleep..

nytez guys..

daaa~

someone used to say to me....

follow your heart...

at that time, it didn't quite make sense...

well, u cannot always be following your heart right?

now i get the point...

sometimes you have to follow your heart in order to find happiness...

to solve problems...

and even enjoying yourself...

thanks a lot for that advice...

will bear it in mind..

:)

ok...

i think i've found my way...

i'm going to throw away all of my memories of him..

all of my troubles..

throw it away in the dustbin...

no more sadness...

no more suffering...

no more pain..

and i'm going to always be happy...

remember all of the happy memories with my friends...

family and everyone i love...

thanks to everyone who gave me strength all this time...

i really appreciate it..

<3 u guys..

muahx~

pieces of ME...

i left him...

thinking that he will have regrets..

that he will fight for our relationship...

but i guess all of this years have been a total waste..

i trusted him...

maybe not entirely...

but that is enough to break my heart...

to make me suffer...

i just hope he know why i did this...

why i have to leave him...

it's against me to accept someone like him...

but, i guess i'm not strong enough to accept his mistakes...

they are too heavy to handle...

in the end, i ended up heartbroken...AGAIN..

and it's all bcoz of him...

he's my first love and even though all that he had done to me...

i still can't get over him..

why?

god, please tell me why...

why do my heart breaks every time he do something wrong?

why does my tears flow when i think of him?

he's not a good guy...

but why do i love him so much?

i need strength...

right now, i'm vulnerable...

i'm too weak to stand..

too weak to even be my happy self again...

all i can do is smile..

bcoz the pain is unbearable...

it's too hard to swallow..

the pain is too great for me to endure...

please make it stop...

please...

:'(

X sgke...

awk....

sy x sgke awk cmni tw...

cmne awk bley jd cmni?

spe ajar awk?

npe awk tgamak tguk air haram 2?

awk x ingt dosa ke?

smpi ati awk tpu sy...

sy ingtkn awk bek...

rpenye awk bkn org yg sy knal slame 7 thn nie...

nmpknye sy mmg x pnah knal awk...

awk org asing rpenye...

sy x knal awk spe...

sy tul2 ingtkn awk bek...

sy ingtkn awk nkal jer...

sy x sgke awk truk smpai cm 2 skali...

hncur ati sy ble dpt tw awk...

sy tpkse mntk ptus wlaupn ati sy sgt2 x rela...

tp klau sy x wt cm 2, ati sy lg hncur...

sy x bley nk trime org cm awk...

maafkn sy...

tp sy x ckup kuat utk trime pe yg awk pnah wt...

ye, sy tw sy bknnye bek...

sy pn de wt slh...

tp sy ttap ingt mak bpak sy seblum sy wt bnde2 uh...

sy nyesal sgt2...

ntah la awk...mgkin de hikmah kta knal...

mgkin allah nk tnjuk kt sy yg awk nie bkn org yg bek...

alhamdulillah...

syukur allah da tnjukkn dri awk yg sbnr kt sy...

klau x, rsenye sy pn da jd cm awk skunk nie...

:'(

awk nie da npe????

awk....

npe awk jd cmni ek?

x phm la sy...

dpn sy ckp len, blakang sy ckp len...

dpn sy awk ckp awk x lyn pmpuan len...

tp blakang sy bkn men lg...

siap bgyut lme2 lg...

nsib bek la yg kcau uh kwn sy...

klau x da lme la sy blasah awk n die...

muahahaha~

anyway, sy tw la pe sy nk wt kt awk nnt...

awk tggu je la ye...

hihihihihi...

daaa~

Mggu Assignment!!! grrrr~

holla...

x tw la nk ckp pe kn...

hahaha...

just nk btw...

mggu nie adlh officially "Mggu Assignment DUP2A"

huhu...

lcturer bg byk gler kje...

ngan case study, kuiz, presentation, test, report...

haish....mnguji ksabaran tul la...

hurm...

sabo jela...

ngan tdo x ckup...

nsib bek la x pgsn...

klau x...

drama drama drama (cm iklan plih kasih kt tv2 uh)

hehe...

2 je nk story...

len xde pape kot...

daa~

majlis tunang kakak sulung sy..tahniah..

2 haribln april 2011...

pd trikh nie la kakak sulung aku, kak leen

slamat btung ngan laki plihan die, abg fareez..

tahniah aku ucapkn utk diorg bdue...

diorg nmpk secocok jer...

dlm hepi2 uh...

tslit gak rse sayu bub x lme lg kak leen akn g tgglkn aku n fmily...

die da nk jd isteri org...

die kne ikut abg fareez...

aku x bley nk mnje2 lg ngan die pas nie...

die akn jd tmpt bmnje utk org len...

pas nie da xde lg org yg nk usik aku...

yg nk pggil aku gmuk..

huhu...

i will truly miss u kak leen...

congrats from ur little sister...iffie..

'mini' pelamin yg x bpe nk mini..hehe

nie la hntaran dr side ktorg...lawa x?

nenek intan, kak leen n aku..

mak, kak eeza, kak leen, aku n ayah...

ktorg ngan abg fareez...

TERIMA KASIH BYK2!!!!

terime kaseh byk2 awk sbub hncurkn ati sy...

trime kaseh bub tpu sy slame nie...

awk da wt sy t'skse ngan awk slame nie...

slame nie sy tggu awk msj sy, call sy...

tp pe yg sy dpt?

sket ati jer...

sy mkn ati jer ngan awk...

smpai ati awk kn...

ble ngan sy awk wt x lyn jer kn....

tp ble ngan org len awk lyn cm putri...

bgus la...

truskn la prangai cm 2...

sy dpt rse awk da x ingt sy lg...

awk slalu tnye sy ble sy nk blek...

kul bpe sy blek..

awk cm nk smbunyikn sumthin dr sy...

nmpknye mmg tul...

jd trime kaseh la utk sume yg awk pnah wt utk sy slame nie...