best friend = boyfriend & soulmate

holla guys..

it's been a while..

haha..

have been having a mental breakdown actually..

but, u know what?

i've found someone else..

and he makes me feel even happier than before..

who is he?

he's my bestfriend and we are progressing to being boyfriend and maybe soulmate..

crazy huh?

well, he was the one who was here when i was having a mental breakdown..

honestly, i did thought of ending my life..

but, he was the one that talked sense to me..

comforted me whenever i feel like giving up..

gave me his shoulder to cry on..

hug me when i'm starting to feel down..

he understands me most..

i don't have to tell him how i'm feeling at that time..

he can just guess from my reactions..

my voice and everything..

it's just amazing when u found someone who truly understands you for who you really are..

and you can understand him the exact same way..

we sort of just clicked..

all of my secrets are with him and vice versa..

we trust each other so much that every single, even darkest secrets are shared..

thanks awk..

u make me feel like a new person..

someone who doesn't need to pretend..

someone that can just be herself at any time..

and even be loved for it..

the one i can just cry whenever i want to..

no need to pretend i'm fine because you'll know straight away i'm lying..

thanks for everything..

i promise i won't leave you..

even it's not meant to be between us, we can still remain as best friends..

:D

self improvement..

holla guys..
it's been a while..
well, xde bnde sgt nk cte pung..
lgpn, i'm not feeling very well..
batuk n demam jer..
haish, maybe my antibodi da x kuat kot..
em, just nk btw yg aku n Mr. D da xde pape..
die da anggap aku kwn die jer skang nie..
at first mmg sush nk trime..
tp last2 aku redha gak..
slh sndri la sbnrnye..
mls nk cte..
pnat da nanges..
huhuhuu..
so, skang nie aku da berazam..
i'm going to leave it all to Allah..
ape yg jd sumenye aku serahkan pd DIA..
sbb DIA lbey tw ape yg t'bek utk aku..
aku cume nk fokus kt mse dpn aku sndri..
hal cinta2 nie aku tolak ketepi dlu..
i'm not ready yet to touch that topic..
when the time comes, aku akn trime ape pn yg Allah da tntukn utk aku..
that's all for now..
thanks for reading peeps!
love u all..
:)

don't let go..

this one is for Mr. D..
awk, npe awk slalu x ksah jer klau sy ckp pape psal laki len?
npe ble sy ckp ade laki nk rapat ngan sy, awk x ksah jer..
sy tnye awk jelez ke x..
awk ckp x..
em, awk x syg sy ke?
ye, awk ckp awk x ksah sbb tu hak sy..
tp at least awk tnjuk la ckit yg awk syg sy..
sy nk awk fight utk sy..
tp awk mcm menyerah sy..
sy pn kdg2 t'pk..
maybe awk syg sy mcm tu jer kot..
awk bkn btul2 sygkn sy pn..
sbb tu awk relaks jer..
xpela awk..
sy nk wt cmne kn..
tpulang pd awk la nk wtpe..
i juz want u to express ur true feelings towards me..
if u really love me, show it with ur actions..
that's all i'm asking..
please...
I love u..
I wanna be with u..
Not someone else..
Please don't give me to someone else and be fine with it..
Don't let go without a fight..
Eventhough i'm not yours yet..

dreams = reality

holla guys..
aku tlupe nk cte sumthing..
ok, sbnrnye seblum aku knal Mr.D aku pnah mimpi..
dlm mimpi aku tu, aku ngah jln2 ngan someone..
aku x ingt mke die..
yg aku ingt die hensem n tggi..
dlm mimpi tu ktorg jln2 jer..
smbil pgg tgn..
n x lme pas tu aku knal ngan die..
aku x tw nk ckp ape..
tp mcm coincidence plak aku mimpi jln ngan someone n aku knal die..
lpas tu die sme ngan laki yg aku mimpi tu..
die tggi n hensem..
bg aku die hensem la..
eventhough die syek ckp dri sndri hensem..
aku x nk ngaku sbb sgan..
nnt die ckp ape plak..
hahaha..
okla, that's it for now..
bubui~

hidden love..

repeatedly asking myself why i have to feel sad...
i love him, he loves me too..
it's the perfect thing to happen to me right?
well, u're wrong..
it's because he has a girlfriend..
that is the major thing that's stopping us from proceeding to the next level..
right now, me and him is just 'best friends'
we cannot be a 'couple'
and i have to restrict whatever i say or post on facebook or even my twitter..
the jealous is always there..
but what can i do?
she has more right than me..
i have to stay hidden..
he did ask me what do i think about sharing..
i didn't answer and act dumb..
it's because i've been through this before..
and it doesn't turn out well..
as a matter of fact, it gave me an enemy that i was not supposed to have..
it made me weak..
it clouds my judgement..
and i promised to myself that i'm going to learn from that mistake..
i don't want to be hurt again..
but what's happening now is quite painful..
watching from far him and his girlfriend conversing..
like his photos..
but i cannot do anything..
i can just watch..
because i'm his hidden love..
:'(

hole in my heart...

hey guys..
it's been a while right?
well, quite busy lately..
just wanna let out my feelings here..
aku rndu die..
i miss him so badly i wanna scream out loud..
but i can't..
he's not mine...
he never was..
but it's still not enough to stop this longing in my heart..
i want to be with him forever..
to be in his arms all day...
asking him not to let me go..
what's wrong with me?
i feel so lost...
and tears just feel like falling..
it's almost i cannot control myself..
but we promised to take things slow..
sorry i'm like this..
just really emotional when it comes to you Mr.D...
hope u can be my soulmate..

soulmate..

hey guys..
wassup?
hehehe..
sihat kah?
alhamdulillah..
okey, nk story mory..
ari tu kn, aku jd urusetia bowling..
3 ari bturut2 jmpe org yg sme la kn..
then, aku prasan sorg mamat nie..
bg aku hnsem hokey..
die dak poli aku gak..
nme die Mr.D..
mse mle2 aku just minat2 gtu jer..
yelah, trase nk kwn jer..
pas uh tetbe die tgur aku..
start dr ctu ktorg cm rapat..
pas tu aku add die kt fb..
n die tgur aku..
ktorg chat2 pas tu die mntk no..
start dr ctu whatsapp la..
n u know what?
die ckp die pn mnat aku gak..
tp.....
die da ade gf..
huhuhuu
cume die ckp die syg gf die cm kwn biase jer..
tp aku lbey ckit dr kwn..
ntah la, tp aku da syg die jauh lbey dr tu..
awk, be my soulmate please?
*wink2*
;)