hidden love..

repeatedly asking myself why i have to feel sad...
i love him, he loves me too..
it's the perfect thing to happen to me right?
well, u're wrong..
it's because he has a girlfriend..
that is the major thing that's stopping us from proceeding to the next level..
right now, me and him is just 'best friends'
we cannot be a 'couple'
and i have to restrict whatever i say or post on facebook or even my twitter..
the jealous is always there..
but what can i do?
she has more right than me..
i have to stay hidden..
he did ask me what do i think about sharing..
i didn't answer and act dumb..
it's because i've been through this before..
and it doesn't turn out well..
as a matter of fact, it gave me an enemy that i was not supposed to have..
it made me weak..
it clouds my judgement..
and i promised to myself that i'm going to learn from that mistake..
i don't want to be hurt again..
but what's happening now is quite painful..
watching from far him and his girlfriend conversing..
like his photos..
but i cannot do anything..
i can just watch..
because i'm his hidden love..
:'(