Loyalty?

"A true friend treats u like family"

All the words are true..

However i can't help but feel that i treat most of my friends like that..

But not really the other way around..

Well, the other day i was going into spore for "jalan raya"..

During the time waiting to go through the custom checkpoint..

My mum and my aunt was talking about me going to malacca to spend time with one of my bestfren during college days..

She was getting married..

Anyways, my aunt was kinda questioning why i wanted to spend almost a week there..

Then my mum backed me up and said..

'Just let her go, she has lots of friend during happy times..but during hard times most of them dissapear..i pity her'

That time i actually tried my best to maintain my composure..

But only Allah knows how i felt at the moment..

Then i thought to myself..i tried my hardest to keep that a secret from my family..

But hey, moms know best right?

Who am i to lie about it..

It's ok mum..

I'm used to it now..

I know they always look for me when they have a problem but ignores me when i'm in need..

But i want u to know..

I still want to help..

Call me an idiot, call me weak..

But i will not change a thing..

Because there will come a time that people will appreciate what i've done for them..

They will see the real reason why i did that..

Who they can actually count on..

I can be strong if i believe it..

Isn't it?

I don't think i can continue this further without tears in my eyes..

No matter what happens, i know instill have myself.. :')