Dear Mr Boo..

If only i could turn back time..

Maybe all of this would never happen..

Maybe i wouldn't feel they way i feel now..

Truth is sometimes i feel that i'm losing him..

I can't help but feel suspicious of whatever he does..

Feel so sensitive to his every actions..

And maybe all of this is my fault..

He has always been all but faithful to me..

Instead how do i repay him?

I was selfish..

Reckless..

Stupid to realize my actions towards his love and affection towards me..

Even he still treats me nicely, deep down i can feel there is something heavy he's hiding..

It's been bothering me ever since..

But i don't want to push him to tell me if he doesn't want to..

However almost every night i will think about it..

Even when i'm with him..

His every move, way he talks to me, treats me..

Every single thing might break me or make me stronger..

I can't help but be prepared for what's coming..

I'm really sorry boo but i dunno how to make it go away..