i did it!

i did it!

at last...

muahahaha~

hey guys..

korg mesty ingt aku da gler kn?

haha..

no worries la..

aku still waras lg tw..

em, juz nk ckp aku da bjaye buang A dr ati aku..

he's no longer in there..

skunk nie ati aku ksong...

so...sespe yg single kt luar sne..

I'M ALSO SINGLE!!!!

hahaha

:D

i'm a living doll... -_-

right at this moment..

i feel there is no need for my existence in this world anymore..

i feel that i have become a living doll..

well..i myself are not sure what is happening to myself..

i don't feel like smiling, even laughing..

it's like all emotions have been sucked from me..

it's like i don't have a soul anymore..

i would just smile or laugh to please people around me..

it doesn't come straight from my heart..

it's really fake..

but no matter what, i still manage to hide it from everyone around me..

especially HIM...A..

he doesn't even realize his every move, everything he says..

his face, even his voice makes me hurt even more...

makes me even more lifeless by the minute..

right now i just feel like hurting myself even more...

eating non stop..

sitting alone..

just daydreaming...

like a crazy person..

what is wrong with me?

when night comes, it's hard for me to close my eyes..

not without him popping in my head..

everywhere i look, i see his face...

god, when will this nightmare end?

i don't know how much longer i can stand this

before committing suicide or going crazy...

i hate how i keep thinking about him...

it hurts so much...

please let this nightmare end...

please........ :'(

i had a dream...

awk...

sy mimpi awk ari 2...

npe bru skunk awk mncul dlm mimpi sy..

npe ble awk bkn milik sy bru awk dtg?

em....mgkin bub sy rndu awk kot..

stiap kli sy tgk awk...

sy rse sayu sgt2..

sy x dpt nk m'miliki awk..

awk da twar ati ngan sy..

awk x nk lyn sy lg..

mgkin awk da de org len..

em...sy mimpi sy ngah b'jln nk msuk dewan kuliah jbtn..

sy nmpk awk tp sy jln laju2..

nk elak dr awk..

sy tkut awk prasan sy...

tp awk ttap prasan..

awk nk trik tgn sy..

tp sy kraskn ati n rentap tgn sy dr awk..

sy trus jln..

tp tetbe awk trik lg tgn sy n trus pluk sy kuat2..

awk x nk lpaskn sy...

mse 2...air mate yg slame nie sy thn stiap kali tgk awk...

ggur tnpa sy bley kwal...

sy t'esak2 dlm plukan awk...

tp syg...2 cme mimpi...

sy tw, ianya xkn pnah jd..

kte xkn mgkin b'sme..

sy cme nk awk tw...

sy rndu awk..

x bley nk thn..

lg2 ble sy tgk awk b'gurau2 ngan pmpuan len..

sy slalu bygkn 2 sy..

awk,maafkn sy..

bub x bley nk lpekn awk..

tp tlgla jgn mngelak dr sy lg ye..

jgn rsau...

sy jnji sy x wt pape utk trik phatian awk..

sy cme nk tgk mke awk puas2..

biar t'ubt ckit rndu sy..

My New Housemates! :D

sofea

kak ekin

erin

nadia

nie la housemates bru aku...

sofea uh akn jd roommate aku..

bub ktorg nnt duk 1 blik..

kak ekin n erin duk 1 blik...

n nadia bkn housemate aku bub die duk asrama..

tp still ktorg bley d'katekn 1 geng la..

hehe...

stakat nie duk ngan diorg mme best..

korg mmg t'bek!

syg korg..

;)

hope awk hepi slalu.... :'(

awk da de org len kn?

em...xpela klau awk x nk ckp ngan sy...

sy xde hak pn nk tw sume uh...

tul la sgkaan sy yg awk ske die..

n die pn ske awk gak kn..

bgusla..

at least awk x btpuk seblah tgn cm sy nie..

wt sket ati jer kn syg org yg x syg kte nie?

huhuhu..

yelah,nk wt cmne...

cnta bknnye bley pakse..

sy doakn awk bhagie la ngan die..

hope die pmpuan yg t'bek utk awk...

:)

Monday Blues...zzzzz~

hey guys..

not really in the mood nk b'cte ari nie...

tp m'mndangkn xde org lg yg bley aku jdkn tmpt ngadu..

so,cni jela tmpt yg aku bley luahkn prasaan..

huhu..

em...well,nk d'jdkn cte..

smlm aku msj ngan A..

aku tnye die npe die snyp lately..

agk2 korg la kn..

die jwb pe?

em...die ckp die sje2 x nk tgur aku..

x nk reply msj aku..

die ckp die x tw npe ngan dri die..

die ckp die ngah byk prob...

aku tnye die, x nk share ke..

die ckp die cian kt aku tp die x bley nk btw sbbnye..

tpulgla..2 hak die..aku x bley nk pkse2..

then,ari nie aku de presentation..

mule2 msuk klas jer da kne mrh..

lcturer aku tnye npe ktorg pkai t-shirt bkn bju formal..

ktorg diam jer..

tp dlm ati nk jer aku ckp kn ngah blaja recreation..

klau ikutkn x yahla pkai bju formal..

tp kang die ckp ktorg nie kurg ajar plak..

aku dr smlm mmg sket kpale gler2..

rse cm nk muntah..

tp aku thn jer..

pe lg,mkin ilang mood aku..

org wt lwak..glak2 pn aku wt bodo jer...

aku dgr jer pe yg org present kt dpn..

pdahal 1 bnde pn x msuk kpale aku..

aku cme thn muntah..

time uh,aku mmg da x pduli pe org len nk pk..

aku wt hal sndri...

lantakla diorg nk ckp aku nie sewel ke pe..

tp lme2 aku pk,xde gnenye aku stress x tntu psl..

die bknnye pnting kn..

aku juz lpaskn sume uh..

n rse kpale aku ringan ckit..

rse nk muntah pn ilang ckit2..

pas uh, aku da bley glak2..

end up,sume ok..

bru skunk aku sdar,klau aku blaja lpaskn sume prob aku..

sng aku nk truskn idup..

tul x?

:)

utk awk...

awk...

sy x bniat nk mngelak dr awk..

sy xde simpan dendam pape pn kt awk..

sy bknnye elak awk bub nk wt awk sket ati...

wt awk jelez..

tp mgkin nie utk yg t'bek..

sy kne wt awk bnci sy..

biar sng sy nk lpekn awk nnt...

awk...

nk tw x..

mse kt highway uh..

sy tgk awk..

sy rse cdey sgt2..

sy pk..

awk de dpn mate sy tp sy x bley nk m'miliki awk..

awk bkn milik sy..

n ble awk dpn sy jer mesty sy g tmpt len kn..

bkn pe,sy x bley nk thn prasaan sy..

sy tkut sy ilang kwalan..

sy nk sgt duk seblah awk..b'bual ngan awk...

2 da ckup bg sy..

tp pe yg sy bley wt kn..

sy cme bley tgk awk dr jauh..

thn prasaan sy kt awk..

smpikn kpale sy sket..

sy tw awk x prasan..

tp sbnrnye sy nk muntah time 2..

tp sdaye upaye sy thn..

bub sy x nk tnjuk kt org yg sy nie lmah..

sy x nk org rsau sal sy..

lg2 awk..

sy x nk bhrp lg..

jd sy hrp awk phm..

sy x nk khilangan awk..

tp pe daya sy kn...

awk dingin sgt ngan sy...

maafkn sy...

mgkin nie jer caranye utk awk hepi cm dlu kte bru2 knal..