All gone..

X tw nk ckp cmne tp ati nie kuat rse yg die da x syg aku lg..

Mainan prasaan ke?

Aku pn x pasti..

Tp aku ngah sediakn dri perlahan2 utk kenyataan tu..

Byk kali aku cbe pjuk ati nie..

Tp tu gak yg aku rse..

Npe jd cmni?

Ya Allah, tnjukknlah kebenaran pd ku..

Terseksa rsenye main teka teki cmni..

Mkn ati..

Menanges jer memanjang..

Rse tkut, sunyi, x yakin..sume ade..

Kwn2 kebanyakan ngan idup masing2..

Tgur pn masing2 diam jer..

Ntah la, diorg bahagia ngan pasangan sndri..

Bgus klau cmtu..

Smoge bahagia..

Aku nie yg mcm digantung x bertali..

Rse ksong jer ati..sunyi sgt2..

R.E.S.P.E.C.T!

people often say,
respect work both ways..
isn't it?
well, to most people it does..
some people will always feel that they're more superior and they will always be respected..
u're wrong man..
even if u're older or more superior whatever u still need to respect people below..
respect is earned, not given..
and sometimes listening is better than just jumping to conclusions..
right?
not pointing it out on anyone particular but it's just what i've been going through these few months..
getting yelled at something that u're trying to explain..
not even listening to the full story but already jumped to their own conclusions..
without even thinking about how the other party felt..
me walking away is simply a sign that i respect u and i don't want to make things worse..
depends on what you're understanding is..
because to be honest, i don't give a damn..
i think i'm old enough to make my own decisions most of the time..
please just respect me, my belongings, my space and my life..
everyone have their own lives..
they don't just live to please u..
Assalam..

Dear Me...

Dear Me,
If u're somewhere reading this..
I just want you to know that i miss u..
i miss what i can become with u..
i can barely recognize who i am now..
what have i become is somewhat a mystery even to myself..
i've become so full of anger, hatred and rebellious..
what had become of the once innocent girl that laughs a lot..
very positive of life and strong?
who faces every challenge in life like a simple game..
who keeps a smile on everyday..
who can hide her tears until before going to sleep..
who can keep on doing what she has to without complaint..
who likes to take up any challenges thrown at her?
who never bothered what people says to her..
who is always so cheerful and funny..
who is likable by many and friendly..
sometimes i feel like a stranger to myself..
well, i guess time will tell..
hope i can meet u soon..
please come back..

love,

me..

Trapped...

Assalam,
pnah x kte tnye dri sndri npe nasib kte cmni?
npe sush utk org keliling nk phm kte?
bg ruang kt kte utk wt kputusan sndri?
kdg sush rse nk truskn idup sbb x dpt sokongan dr org yg kte syg...
especially dr parents kte sndri..
kdg terpk, diorg nie sdar x diorg la tmpt bergantung utk anak2?
diorg la contoh n tmpt rujukan klau de mslh ke pape..
tp x..parents aku x phm...
diorg mlut jer ckp phm tp ati ckp lain..
mule2 ckp lain nnt da lme2 ckp lain..
slhkn aku utk bnde yg jd...
Ya Allh, npe bckp mcm xde tuhan nie?
slhkn takdir ke?
aku mntk ke bnde2 nie jd kt aku?
x pnah rsenye..
x pnah aku mntk idup aku cmni..
keje sush nk kekal..
kwn2 x rmai yg setia..
slalu kne pijak..
bwk kete jarang selamat..
sume tu slh aku ke?
ble ade pape jd, bgduh slhkn aku..
spe mak bapak skang nie?
sume slhkn anak..
bgus la cmtu kn..
lyn anak pn mcm member2..
jgn la slhkn anak2 lpas nie klau kte lyn mcm member2 gak..
ilang rse hormat nie kdg2..
tp kte ttap sbr sbb masih ade rse hormat lg dlm dri nie..
cume sbr pn ade batas..
jgn nnt ble anak bukak mlut ckit ckp derhaka, kurg ajar..
die jer nk mnang..
alasan lbey byk makan garam..
ye, mmg btul tp kehidupan dlu ngan skang x sme..
skang nie mkin mencabar..
ble sush ckit slhkn spe?
anak2? sbb ape?
x blaja btul2?
dpt keje gaji kecik? cpt ngalah?
klau keje tu da pangkat manager x pnah kne pijak..
jgn ckp ngan kte la psl ngalah..
don't act like a king when u have no idea what i've been through..
sbb ape?
sbb x pnah nk amek tw..
sbb tlalu pntingkn dri..
x pnah nk pduli jge ati org..
cermin dlu dri sndri tu seblum nk tgur org lain..
klau ikutkn ati mmg berjela2 post nie tp rse stakat nie la aku taip..
sekian~

Forever after..

Hai awk..

Cbe awk bce ayat ats nie..

Phm x?

Hahaha..hrp phm la..

Anyway, sy nk mntk maaf klau ade wt awk sket ati ke ape..

Abaikn awk ke..

Sy nk mntk maaf utk sgalenye..

Mmg awk ckp xde pape, awk ok..

Tp ntah la kn..ati sy nie rse ade bnde yg x kne ngan awk..

Mcm awk ade smbunyikn sumthing dr sy..

Cume sy x nk pakse..

Klau awk rse sy nie pnting bg awk..

Awk bley cye sy ngan mslh awk..

Awk akn cte gak kt sy 1 ari nnt..

Mgkin gak awk pnat keje kn..

Kdg kte sush nk jmpe..

Yelah, awk mesty pnat lpas blek keje..

Time chat tu mcm moody jer..

Time kuar sesme pn snyap jer x byk ckp..

Awk slalu tnye npe sy syek tenung jer mke awk..

Sy mesty ckp xde pape..

Sbb x nk awk rsau..

Sy cume rse sunyi..rse rndu sgt..

Kte jarang bergurau sgt skang..

Sy x slhkn awk..yelah, kdg sy nie hangin..

Awk nk bgurau, sy mrh2..

Tp awk da lain..

Dlu awk slalu tnye sy ok ke x..

Usik2 sy..check fon sy..

Klau x bukak gmbr ke chat awk men game..

Skng nie klau sy ltak ats meja awk wt2 x nmpk jer..

Mgkin awk pnat kn?

Cian awk..sy nie pk bkn2 jer..

Awk byk lg bnde lain nk pk..

Syek mlayan sy jer..

Pnat la..

Sy pn x nk bebankn awk..

Yelah, syek pk bnde bkn2 jer..

Sy rse jauh ngan awk..

Mcm hbungan kte nie da x mesra mcm dlu..

Klau sy ade wt slh awk tgur jer k..

InshaAllah sy bley trime..

Xde spe yg sempurna kt dunie nie syg..

N klau sy pressure awk psl kawen, psl family sy..

Sy mntk maaf..sy x ptut libatkn awk..

Kte nie bkn sespe pn..

Blum ade pape ikatan lg..

Tpulang pd awk, awk nk wtpe..

Sy x halang..

Sy akn cbe sdaya upaya sy utk phm n sokong awk..

Stiap doa sy mesty ade nama awk..

Sy doa smoga Allah kuatkn jodoh kte..

Permudahkn perancangan kte..

InshaAllah klau ade rzeki kte x kemane ln syg..