uncontrollable

i failed..
failed to hold on to this relationship..
i thought i could be stronger than this..
but i failed..
sorry because i asked u to let me go..
it's just i can't help to lie to myself and to u..
the truth is i still can't forget him..
he still has that special place in my heart..
i regret for toying with ur feelings..
i dunno what i was thinking at that time..
i was stupid thinking that i could let him go totally..
100%..
awk, maafkn sy ye..
sy tpu awk..
slame nie sy brusaha nk lpekn die..
n cbe nk ltak awk dlm ati sy..
tp sy x bley..
ntah la..
ampunkn la sy..
lpas nie sy x nk bg harapan kt sespe lg..
sy x nk kne label 'player'
better sy stay single jer wt mse nie..
mengharapkn 'dia' yg x tw ble akn dtg blek kt aku..
mgkin gak die wt cmtu sbb nk jge ati aku jer..
dear heart, be strong and just let go..
move on please..
i have to stop torturing myself..
but at the same time..
i can't imagine myself with another guy..
maybe i'll stay like this until YOU decide my fate..
i leave it all to YOU..